Sometimes when I pray I wonder if my words go any farther than the ceiling. In my heart, I know Jesus hears every word but my mind questions and doubts.
If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God,
who gives generously to all without finding fault,
and it will be given to you.
But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt,
because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea,
blown and tossed by the wind.
James 1:5-6 NIV
I know in my heart that God is a generous and giving God but my mind often listens to what the world has to say. This saddens me. I have no reason to doubt Him. His word is true and without deception. I have much reason to doubt the world. The world is full of contradiction and lies. I have not been hurt by God but I have been hurt by the world.
Such people should not expect to receive anything from the Lord.
Their loyalty is divided between God and the world,
and they are unstable in everything they do.
James 1:7-8 NLT
Though my mind questions and doubts my heart is strong and committed to Jesus. I have faith and hope that even my doubting mind cannot deny.
Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen;
it gives us assurance about things we cannot see.
Hebrews 11:1 NLT
For now, that is enough; I pray and wait.
In the morning, LORD, you hear my voice;
in the morning I lay my requests before you and wait expectantly.
Psalm 5:3 NIV
Blessings this day of grace,
For the Kingdom of God is not a matter of what we eat or drink,
but of living a life of goodness and peace and joy in the Holy Spirit.
Ro 14:17 nlt
As children of God, we are to live a life of goodness. That seems pretty simple and straightforward and it is but is it easy? The dictionary says goodness is a state or quality of being good; moral excellence; virtue; generosity; integrity; honesty. Easy to read the definition of goodness and I would like to say it is easy for me to live it. But I often find it difficult to be an example of goodness.
When I find myself with thoughts that are not good or generous, less than honest or pure I have a choice. I can follow through with those thoughts or I can turn away from the darkness of them and face the Light of my life.
For you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord.
Live as children of light
(for the fruit of the light consists in all goodness, righteousness and truth)
and find out what pleases the Lord.
Eph 5:8-10 niv
When I turn to Jesus I can see where the problem lies and do what I need to sweep it away. I may think I have kept my heart clean and well kept but in His light, I can see into all the nooks and crannies where dust and dirt have found their way and settled in. Then I know it is time for some housekeeping of my heart. There isn’t room for unwanted clutter in my heart. That stuff has to go to make room for more of the goodness of the Spirit.
A good man brings good things out of the good stored up in him,
and an evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in him.
Matt 12:35 niv
There was a time when I believed I was to be good, to have goodness shine through me to prove I was a child of God. The truth is I have no need to prove anything with whatever goodness I have in my heart. The goodness is there, has been put there so through me others can see God’s light, His goodness.
…You are royal priests, a holy nation, God’s very own possession.
As a result, you can show others the goodness of God,
for he called you out of the darkness into his wonderful light.
1 Pet 2:9 niv
Why would I let the light of life that dwells in my heart be masked with worthless thoughts? It is so easy to relax and let the light in my heart be veiled by my inattentiveness and selfishness. How sad is that?!
When I talk with Jesus He often reminds me of what I must be vigilant and aware;
Above all else, guard your heart,
for everything you do flows from it.
Prov 4:23 niv
Blessings this day of grace,