When I am out and about I feel young and think I look younger than my years. But when I see my reflection in a mirror I am reminded I am no longer a young woman. What I see is an older woman. Why does this surprise me? I have lived at least two-thirds of my life already. There are fewer years of life ahead of me than years past. I understand this and accept it. I understand that the way I look today is because I have lived more than a few years but this I find difficult to accept.
When I was a young woman I was told I was beautiful now I am told I am attractive. I want to be beautiful. I know it is shallow and superficial of me. I know there is more to beauty than the physical aspect of it. Jesus and I have been having talks about this more often lately. He reminds me, The LORD doesn’t see things the way you see them. People judge by outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart (1 Sam 16:7b) and Charm is deceptive, and beauty does not last; but a woman who fears the LORD will be greatly praised.(Prov 31:30)
Jesus has also reminded me of the gift He gave me long ago, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is so precious to God. I know physical beauty fades and we are not to be concerned about the outward beauty…You should clothe yourselves instead with the beauty that comes from within.(1 Pet 3:4)
Well, I am trying but it is hard!
I still want the beauty that faded.
Blessings this day of grace,