Wait Quietly

I wait quietly before God, for my victory comes from him. He alone is my rock and salvation, my fortress where I will never be shaken. (Ps 62:1-2)

How I want to say this is true of me! I know my victory comes from Him but I struggle with waiting. Outwardly I am quiet, I am a quiet person, but inwardly I scream and yell and rage. I know He is my rock and salvation and fortress, but I am not strong, I tremble and shake.

Lately, when I talk to Jesus and I tell Him of my weakness and my fears He tells me to be quiet and wait. But for how long? I have been waiting a long time for victory in this peace-of-mind-349815_640struggle. Why is the end of this not in sight? Why do the attacks continue? I am not given an answer to those questions. However, He does remind me that He will give me rest, to put on His yoke and to let Him teach me and I will find rest for my soul. (Matt 11:28-29).

If you are struggling with something that seems endless listen to what Jesus says. Be encouraged. He has promised to never leave or abandon us (Jos 1:5) Sometimes it seems that we are left alone in the wilderness of our sufferings but that is a lie that satan wants us to believe. The Spirit dwells within us and will guide us to the fortress of the Lord.

This is my prayer:

Let all that I am wait quietly before God, for my hope is in him. He alone is my rock and my salvation, my fortress where I will not be shaken. Ps 62:5-6)

Blessings this day of grace,
patricia

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Needs and Wants

There was a time when the acquiring of material possessions was very important to me. When I first started working I thought I needed all the newest popular and in demand things. My clothes had to be the most current style from the right stores with all the accessories. Of course, styles change quickly and often so there was a constant need for new clothes.

At first, I was happy with hand-me-down thrift store furniture and household items. But as I saw how other people’s homes looked with bright new appliances and chic new furnishings that made me unhappy with what I had. I went into debt to be part of the fashionable set. The debt was a stress as was the keeping up with the Jones’ mentality. Nothing was ever quite right,  I always felt I needed more.

Jesus was with me and said little about my spending habits and the feeling that if I only had______fill in the blank with whatever it was I didn’t have, I would be satisfied and happy. I began to feel depressed and miserable, worried about money all the time. Soon, Jesus stepped in with some advice;

Don’t love money; be satisfied with what you have.
For God has said, “I will never fail you. I will never abandon you.” 
Hebrews 13:5

What a radical thought!  It did make me think long and hard about what and who was important to me. My prayer became, “Help me to want what I need and not to need what I want.” It took some time to let go of the old habits and thought patterns but slowly my woman-591576_640needs and wants came into alignment. I now know the difference. What freedom there is in a simple life of having what you need and that being enough. Truthfully, I sometimes need a reminder that there is no true lasting happiness in the love of money or things;

Those who love money will never have enough.
How meaningless to think that wealth brings true happiness!
Ecclesiastes 5:10

Is this to say I never buy something I want but don’t need? No, sometimes I just want something because I want it. However, if I want something I don’t need I think about it before I make the purchase and there is no going into debt to have it.  I am happy with what I have and my wants have become fewer and less important. I am still quite amazed at this thought that we can be happy without everything we want and the difference it makes in life.

Are you happy with what you have or do you need what you want?

Blessings this day of grace,
patricia

New Hearts

When we accept Jesus for who He is, not just some nice guy who did amazing things way back when, but as our Redeemer, our Lord and Savior, He gives us a new heart and a new spirit. He throws away the old rock-hard stubborn heart and replaces it with a new merciful and teachable heart. That is an amazing thing!

However, we must guard this new amazing heart because it is not only good that is in newheartthe world there is also evil.  The god of evil, satan, wants back in our heart to do his work. He will do whatever he can to take out the goodness and put ugliness in its place. He will try to make our softened heart bitter and hateful. He wants us to reflect his image not the image of our Lord Jesus.

When we sin satan wins. When we confess and repent he loses. These are battles that are fought every day. But we are not without resources and help in these battles. The Spirit is in our hearts, a fellow warrior who will not be conquered, who fights along with us who will not relinquish his hold on our hearts. Sadly, we still sin and the fights go on and on.But with Jesus at our side, we stand guard over our hearts and have victories. We could not do this by ourselves. Thankfully, the Spirit does not tire or give up, He stands strong and shares His strength with us.

Blessings this day of grace,
patricia

Guard Your Heart

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One of the things that Jesus and I talk about frequently is the condition of my heart. We talk about the physical health of my heart and the need for good diet and exercise and enough sleep. I get a little cranky when proper diet, exercise, and sleep are brought to my attention but I understand I need to be reminded…often it seems.

We also talk about the spiritual state of my heart. Is it kind and generous, loving and caring, cheerful and open, honest and humble, discerning and disciplined, is it pure and focused on Him?  It is easy to say yes I am all these things but am I?  No, I am not! Not even close! It hurts to know how far I have to go before I can answer a firm and true yes.

I can be careless and absent-minded when it comes to the health of my heart, physically and spiritually. I just go about my days insensitive to how what I am doing and thinking is affecting my overall heart health. I know this has to change but I am stubborn and like doing things my way. Ps 51:17 tells us, The sacrifice pleasing to God is a broken spirit. God, you will not despise a broken and humbled heart.  My stubborn and rebellious spirit must be sacrificed to have the heart Jesus wants me to have. The Spirit lives in my heart! His home is meant to be like Him!

Jesus tells me I must guard my heart, my life depends on it. As always He doesn’t leave me to my own devices on how to do this He gives me direction:

Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Phil 4:6-7

Do you know that life, physical and spiritual, flows from the heart?
Are you guarding your heart?

Blessings this day of grace,
patricia

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Good Medicine

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Sometimes when I am not feeling well I start feeling sorry for myself.  I then have a pity poor Patricia party. I invite Woe Is Me to the party who usually brings along Anger. Then Sadness and Depression come uninvited but ready to have a good time even though I don’t like them at all. Still, I do my best to make everyone, invited and uninvited, feel at home and welcome.

The one person I don’t invite to these parties is Jesus. I just feel He would not be comfortable and that would make me uncomfortable and maybe make the others think I am not enjoying their company which I am not but as a good hostess I don’t want that. Anyway, I don’t ask Jesus to come. Of course, He is always with me so He is at the party, just sort of in the background.

If you know Jesus you know He doesn’t stay in the background for long. He is the Great Physician, you know, and doesn’t like to see His people partying with those who pull them down into the pit of self-pity sickness. He always knows what to do and what to say to get all the guests at the party to leave so He can help me on my way to feeling better. He uses different approaches to the healing of my heart. After listening to me wail and cry for awhile He does His thing. Sometimes He soothes me so I sleep, sees to it that a friend gets in touch with me, revives my appetite, has a cat snuggle and purr on my lap…whatever it takes to turn my attention away from me to Him.

He is really quite diverse in His methods and some aren’t as pleasant as the ones I mentioned. Like when He just lets me wallow until I can’t stand myself anymore then I take a shower, get dressed, and go for a walk. Jesus and I talk then and before long whether or not I feel better physically all is well in my world again. It really is about the condition of the heart and when that is not right you need good medicine.

Blessings this day of grace,
patricia

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